We all have “thorn in the flesh” days, but it is all about how you handle them.
On “thorny days” you can press on and thank God that at least you have this day. Be thankful that your child is here in the land of the living, at least you have this opportunity to homeschool them. You can praise God that at least you know that HE is there with you each step of the way. Or, you can do what I sometimes fall into the rut of doing……I call it the “But Lords”…
“BUT LORD!!! you called me to this”, ” BUT LORD, you said you’d be with me every step of the way, so why aren’t you rescuing me yet?”, ”But Lord, if you want me to homeschool why is it so HARD?”, “But Lord, I’ve done everything I can possibly do and this kid STILL CANNOT________________ (fill in your blank)”, ”But Lord, but Lord, but Lord”. Then ONE day….he asked me why exactly I was changing his NAME to ”BUT LORD” instead of “Lord God”, “El Shaddai”, “Jehovah Nissi”, “Jehovah Jireh”, “Jehovah Rapha”, “Jehovah Shalom”, “Ancient of Days”, “Jehovah Shammah”, “Jehovah Tsidkenu”, “Jehovah Mekkodiskem”, “Elohim”, ”Jehovah Saboath”, ”Jehovah Raah”, ” Adonai”, “El Elyon”, ” El Olam”…….you get the idea.
He convicted me, God had called me straight out on this one. In ALL of the names he used to reveal himself, he NEVER ONCE called himself “BUT LORD”.
I laughed out loud, God was right, he never once has revealed himself as the “But Lord” . He has however revealed himself in all of those other ways and by all of those other names. He taught me right then and there that when you call Him by any of His rightful revealed names, He knows who it is you’re speaking to. Of course He knows you’re speaking to him when you call Him “But Lord”, but I’m sure that isn’t His favorite “nickname”. I’d say he much prefers something like “Ay…El Shaddai…you da BOMB yo!” (apologies for that seeming irreverent) and I know in my heart of hearts, he much prefers “Abba Father”. This is a relationship, HE does love us, and even if in our own little dialect we are speaking to Him calling him by His rightful names, he does probably appreciate it, and even acknowledge us more readily than he does when we call him “But Lord”